It's All Good....really...

For me, the only thing that's mine.. is love. Emptiness passes, but deep-felt love abides . Life is beautiful, though many things go wrong. For all who ever were, still are. The road ahead is like the road behind. The dreams achieved revise the dreams to come. I love the clarity of air, each time I take a breath. I love the friends who walk with me, and then must go their way. I love to laugh at all the things that do not know they're fun....so...."no worries"....*smile*....IT'S ALL GOOD...REALLY.

Today I Was.......

.....Sitting on a bench in Central Park, listening to Charlie play the familiar sound of his own Jazz styled opus. A smile crossed my face, as he nodded his head in recognition and waved his fingers at me...As he continued to play, a feeling of peace filled my heart, the warm breeze caressed my face, as my eyes took in the beauty of the grass, the trees, the people.....The "Park." Every single time that I am in New York City, I do this. And it never gets old. In fact, it only gets better. Everytime my experience is new, fresh...Uplifting. The passion and love that I have for this city is undeniable. Every one of my senses come alive, especially here in the park. At this moment I feel positive about my life. I cleared the air with someone that means a lot to me;I got a lot off my chest, I said a lot...Felt a lot. Acknowledged a lot. I hope he feels the same. We can never go "back"... but our friendship can only get better, if we want it too. The foundation that we laid was built on honesty, trust, laughter, sincerity...And that will never break down....It was the walls and layers in between that started to falter, and ultimately fell. Our friendship was effortless, it was our relationship that took the effort. I felt good finally realizing that; as I walked the perimeter of the park. Thinking about and missing "tatopies" ...wondering why I could'nt keep it...I still was able to *smile*

My Soccer Baby...*ahem* I mean "Big Girl"

CAMRYN

#10

She is amazing.... We had Game#5 today and the "Tim Bits" won 6-5. Cammie scored 5 goals while yelling "Come on orange, let's do this!!" (Thanks to her daddy..I'm sure) I am beaming with pride as I watch her, do her thing... The other parents come to me and tell me, what a "great team player" she is, and what a "natural". After the game, Cammie turned back and said "Take it easy Coach." Which made me *smile*

She really is good. She loves it...and I am so very proud!!! Bet you didn't know that huh? Yeah Right. Just keep having fun babygirl..be happy...be safe... Mommy loves you!!

Soul Mate...

My phone will always be answered...
My door will always be open...
A piece of my heart and the "moments" that we shared...
Will forever be yours....

Always,
Soul Mate

Mmmm

"I'd rather have bad times with you then good times with someone else...
I'd rather have the one that holds my heart".....Luther Vandross

I Can See Clearly Now....

I have made this trip a million times. I have driven the same roads, the same route, since I was 16 years old. My vehicles have changed, my CD selections have varied, my thoughts...obviously have been different...However on these trips back and forth between Hamilton and New York, the one incessant feeling that I get...Is the feeling of CLARITY. Every single time...It's odd... I KNOW. But honestly, when I have something that is weighing heavily on my mind, and I happen to be driving this particular route...EVERYTHING becomes that much more unambiguous. Crystal clear.
I have to ‘respect’ the decision. That is what he wants…and I love him enough to give him that. I miss him every minute…can’t stop thinking about him. I want to call him every minute, share with him the events of my day, and hear all about his. I wonder how Granny is…she is too sweet. I regret not going there to celebrate her birthday. I hope she is well. Hmm…Last night, I was thinking about ‘us’. I was wondering if we could ever get back what we had. If maybe down the road…just maybe…I can’t think like that. I have to move on… *smile* He used to always say that we have to ‘keep moving forward.’ So, that is exactly what I have to make myself do…Move forward… But how do you start looking for something/somebody…when you had found what you wanted, without even knowing that you wanted it in the first place? I’m not sure if I will ever have the answer for that question….for now. I don’t even want the answer.

Look Within.......

We need to look within ourselves and try to help each other...Because one day...We may need the help of our neighbour. And would'nt it be nice if they actually answered the door. Something to think about.....