I Can See Clearly Now....

I have made this trip a million times. I have driven the same roads, the same route, since I was 16 years old. My vehicles have changed, my CD selections have varied, my thoughts...obviously have been different...However on these trips back and forth between Hamilton and New York, the one incessant feeling that I get...Is the feeling of CLARITY. Every single time...It's odd... I KNOW. But honestly, when I have something that is weighing heavily on my mind, and I happen to be driving this particular route...EVERYTHING becomes that much more unambiguous. Crystal clear.
I have to ‘respect’ the decision. That is what he wants…and I love him enough to give him that. I miss him every minute…can’t stop thinking about him. I want to call him every minute, share with him the events of my day, and hear all about his. I wonder how Granny is…she is too sweet. I regret not going there to celebrate her birthday. I hope she is well. Hmm…Last night, I was thinking about ‘us’. I was wondering if we could ever get back what we had. If maybe down the road…just maybe…I can’t think like that. I have to move on… *smile* He used to always say that we have to ‘keep moving forward.’ So, that is exactly what I have to make myself do…Move forward… But how do you start looking for something/somebody…when you had found what you wanted, without even knowing that you wanted it in the first place? I’m not sure if I will ever have the answer for that question….for now. I don’t even want the answer.