Today I am....

...Sitting on the patio of Shanghai Reds in Marina Del Rey. Sipping Mimosas, enjoying the warm breeze that is caressing my face, watching as the seals swim in the cool blue water that surrounds the patio in its entirety. The pelicans ..mmm... beautiful. Sunglasses, hiding my face...My hair swaying around my shoulders with the rhythm of the breeze. Sun kissing my shoulders. I'm warm...comfortable, relaxed. Thinking of everything, but really nothing at all. Peoples voices, diminish in sound into the background of my thoughts...Only HIS voice and HIS words ring true to my ear. I sit there and make the mistake that so many of us feel compelled to do...go over and over "it" again, trying to think of ways you would say or do things differently. It doesn't matter now, it's not going to change the outcome, he is no longer there....The images of him walking towards you, changes....He isn't walking towards you anymore. Images have been altered. Now he stands farther away then it seemed before. And desolately, you know that one day, the reflections that you have in your mind will be of him standing there, even pausing perhaps. BUT HE will turn and walk away. It doesn't matter how long it takes for you to get to that point. Sadly you are aware that his walking away IS inevitable. Soon his laughter will fade...Slowly the sound of his voice will fade too...But never completely....And that is where my thoughts have brought me today. Memories alone, will not be enough to slake my want, my need, for him to be walking towards me....With that wicked smile, dancing eyes and outstretched hand..............(W.H.B)